Word Vomit

I need dire help.

I seriously can't even form thoughts into words any longer. I can't form thoughts period actually. It's disgraceful.

I called to cancel our appointment this evening with H&R Block. {Mel won't be able to make it home in time.} I feel sorry for whoever it was I spoke with. I should have rehearsed before I called.

"Hi I was wondering if I could cancel, well we have an appointment tonight. I'd like to reschedule it please." *flustered* Oh gosh why aren't my words coming out right?!?!?!

"Sure! What's your name?"

"Melv...well it might be under my husbands name, Mel, Melvin Renwick, R-E-N-W-I-C-K....it was scheduled for 7??"

"Oh yes, here he his, and when would you like to reschedule?"

"Same time tomorrow if possible please."

"Would you like to keep the same agent?"

"No, we couldn't schedule with our last year person, so whoever matters." *mortified*  Oh my gosh, what just came out of my mouth? I'm throwing up words. I am vomiting words at this poor lady!!!!!

*silence*

*awkward laugh* "I'm sorry, I'm having trouble forming words, I just can't get my thoughts together!" *awkward laugh*

"Ohhhh, it's okay!" *small awkward laugh*

"What I'm trying to say, is we couldn't schedule with our normal agent this year, so whoever you put us with is fine."

 Luckily, I was able to reschedule and hang up before any further mortification.

I've been accused of having diarrhea of the mouth. Jabbering on and on, not knowing when to shut up. {Especially when I'm nervous, I am a TALKER when I am nervous.} But I believe that was the first word vomit I have experienced. And I have a feeling it won't be the last.

I've been having to focus and pay attention to what is coming out of my mouth, other wise I would sound like someone who is on the verge of, or really having a, stroke. And I'm not saying that to make fun. Strokes aren't funny. But that is truly what I sound like!

My poor scrambled egg brain.

As you can see, I'm still really struggling with blogging. The word vomit isn't just in speech, I am having a really hard time writing as well! It's the whole "forming thoughts" thing that is getting to me. I have an idea of what I want to say, but it's like it's tumbling in a dryer, and I can't form it into something legible.

And I miss blogging darn it!

I've seriously lost all creative activity and it's BLOWS. I want myself back.  :( I want my BRAIN back!

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