I posted this in my private blog that I use for all things baby. But no one reads that blog. Not even the people who are supposed to. {*cough* Dad *cough* Katie *cough* Dana *cough*} So I'm posting here to share with them, as well as other readers.
I'm a failure. A big fat failure.
I failed my GD test. In this instance GD can be one of two things. Both horrible. And both fit the phrase. But I'm talking about GESTATIONAL DIABETES.
I spoke with Devin {always remember Devin=Nurse of Awesomeness} Friday afternoon. She called to give me some terrible, horrible, not-so-very good news. I FAILED that dang old 3 hour test. *Insert SUPER DRAMA SIGH here* The sad part is? I was on the my way to take the kids to get ice cream for a special treat. So I did what I knew was the right thing to do...and pretended I talked to Devin AFTER our Baskin Robbins trip. I enjoyed several bites of a sundae made with Reese's ice cream, topped with hot fudge and whipped cream. It felt like my last meal. But I couldn't even eat half of it. {Hailey and Leah ended up polishing it off.}
I've got to be honest. I was a actually really REALLY surprised that I had been diagnosed with gestational diabetes. You would think I wouldn't be so shocked. After all I have always been borderline, and had to do tests repeatedly. It's just that I always PASSED the final tests. I would get close, but always ended up okay in the end. I never even imagined not actually passing my 3 hour.
I should receive a call tomorrow sometime about an appointment with a diabetes specialist, so I'm guessing I will be seeing one this upcoming week sometime. To be honest the appointment can't come soon enough. I have no idea what to do until then and it's an awful feeling. I'm just going about things as I normally would. Many woman take their GD test week 28 of their pregnancy, so I keep telling myself that in some cases I wouldn't even know yet.
I'm not freaked out. I'm not worried. {Well for the most part.} I'm not stupid, I know it's not the end of the world. I've also posted on my boards and have gotten lots of positive comments. It's really not that big of a deal. I've had maybe one or two comments that sure didn't seem great, but I know everything is going to be okay. {Apparently my pregnancy is now considered high-risk and there's a chance of stillbirth. WHY THE CRAP WOULD SOMEONE TELL ME THAT?!?!} Overall other than comments from other moms I really have no idea what will happen from here on out. I know I will have to test my blood sugar and watch what I eat. But that's it. I'm not sure exactly WHAT I'll be watching, and what my blood levels even mean. I also don't know what it means for Grayson, other than he has chance of being big. {Uh, duh, that was a given anyway.} I've got lots to learn, and more than anything it's not knowing anything right now that's bugging me most.
I'm hoping the appointment will be soon. The sooner the better. Bring on the finger pricks, I'm going to make gestational diabetes my bitch.
On the bright side, maybe I can make friends with Wilford Brimley and score some hot deals at Liberty Medical.
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2 comments:
Yay for Wilford Brimley! And yay for you for knowing this isn't the end of the world! I'm really impressed with how well you're doing, sweetie :)
My biological mother actually had GD. I came out jaundiced as a mug, but I turned out okay!
(I actually like to pretend that I was named Jon because of my jaundice. Get it? JONdice.)
I am shocked I'd never had GD during my pregnancies. A few of mine, I'd had to go back for the 3 hour as well, and my mom had GD with me and is now full blown diabetic. I figured it was just a matter of time.
I'm sorry you didn't skate through this pregnancy without it though!
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